Pain..

There are 2 irritating mouth ulcers with me now.. They hurt and makes eating painful... It has been there since last wed.. So that's almost a week ago and it's not healing yet.. Shucks..

I put salt on it during the weekend and yday i bought some chinese medicine to apply.. Today, it still hurts badly and worse still, i tink my lips are cracking even though i drank 2 litres of water.. I can't talk and can't eat properly..

It definitely doesn't help when i am already feeling so down..

Alvin's ROM

Haha.. Yday, 1 more fren of mine stepped into the ROM le.. Hee hee.. Seems like this is the age that i get the most no. of "red bombs".. Anyway, All the best to u, Alvin.. May u lead a blissful life.. N i will be awaiting for your 2008 wedding dinner.. But can i dun be the emcee??? Pls.....

Ah.. I am getting lazy..

This is not the first time i tink i am lazy.. haha.. i m a lazy bum.. I always hate to do things that i find a chore.. Just like keying in the attendance and L.Planning... hee hee.. So for the past week, i din key in a single thing and my laptop is jus sitting there.. Tink maybe i should change my bad habits...??


P.S.: A leopard cant change its spots.. hee hee..

16 Multi-shots.. Fun!!

Found this "new" function of my cam yday.. 16 multi shots in a pic.. So Fun! Hee hee.. So I tested it out with my family.. hee hee...

My sis-in-law..

The Cutie - My Grandnephew!

Eh.. The father of cutie.. i.e. mY nephew la..

We realised that as the shots went on, we dun know wat to do after that.. haha.. So i tink we would need more practice with this function.. haha.. But it's fun.. Will try it out with my frenz soon.. haha..

Fruitful weekend..

I was at home on sat and then when sis ask me to go shopping with her.. I agreed although i know that i got stuff to mark.. But then, on the other hand, I have lots of time this week cuz i will not be gg back to school at all.. Hee hee.. So let's go shopping.. I must say that i have control.. I din buy anything at all.. Though i saw a few skirts that i like but i tink, i can do without them la..

After that, i went to meet judy at bliss.. I cycled there.. Haha.. The benefits of bicycle - All Thanks to Ice!

On sun, ting was supposed to come and help me with my attendance.. but somehow, the intranet is down and she's unable to help me to key in the attendance!! Argh.. Irritated.. So in the end, we went tampines mall to shop.. Haha.. But this time, i bought ting her wallet (1 month early bd present) and a bd present for her mum.. So i spent over a hundred on them.. Hmmm..

I met up with sin at bishan.. He said he cant find the mitch albom's book.. Hmm.. so sad.. Thot i could have a book to read during the PSLE marking.. I wanted to try the acacia restaurant at bishan park but he dun want, so we chilled at cafe cartel.. I told him abt the dream of me stealing his car.. hahaha.. THink he's very tickled by it.. I was so guilty lor.. Haiz.. So he said, i dun have to steal his car, jus say it and he will lend me.. Ok ok.. THanks la.. I also dun know why i would have that dream lor!! haha.. Maybe i have this evil streak in me.. haha..

信任

我对我身旁的人，特别是亲近的人，某些要求特别高，尤其是他们对我的信任度，我要求他们对我有绝对的信任。因为，我对于别人，也有着绝对的信任（除非这份信任被出卖了）。这也许是令我最不高兴的原因，因为，如果我觉得我最亲近的人不信任我时，我的心情就会变得很郁闷，对他们的态度也会很差。这是一种恶性循环，我了解这一点，但我没法改变它。

如果我的朋友能信任我，为什么你们就不能呢？难道在你们的眼中，我这么地不值得你们信任吗？我心受伤了...还是我们的相处方式，必须像在外界工作那样，每一件事都要证据，有凭证。那么我们讨论事情时，需要做会议记录吗？

可悲啊！也许我应该让你们看一看我这篇心情写照吧！但是，我也了解你们读了， 心理应该会很不舒服吧。

人与人之间，少了份信任，那么，还谈什么友情，亲情，爱情？信任是每一份感情最基本的要求。不是吗？

Me and I

I am wondering if i should cont in this job.. Ok ok.. Before u scream or scold me for thinking too much, well, that's me.. I am jus wondering if i am really cut out for this job.. I wanna further my studies, with my current workload, i dun think i will be able to take the stress.. So I jus ask AP, should i turn adjunct? Being an adjunct, there'll be time and less duties on my side.. But money is not.. (bonuses and benefits all gone) However, i can take up tuition jobs and earn the difference( I may earn even more). But DO I reallY want it to be this way?? I really dun know.. I get conflicting opinions.. Or maybe it's just the work environment i am in now.. I love my frenz in school.. I will miss them if i trsf lor.. But there might be a greener pastures on the other side (wat if the other side is not as green??)
Argh.. I hate choices... But it's better than no choice right??

Conflicting.. Me and I fighting.. Hmmm..

Small Updates

It has been quite some time since i updated my blog.. well.. as usual, my life is filled with ups and downs.. I thot of a lot of things these days(well, i think a lot).. But i am really too lazy to blog it down.. Anyway, today, i was busy marking and marking.. Cuz fri is the compo exams and i need to rush out the compos and return it back to the students.. Hmm.. 2 stacks and 2 comprehensions today.. A feat woh.. Jus like wat sin said the other day, his life is now M&M (mtgs and markings) haha.. My life is also the same too..

I think my stomach is not tat well these days.. Hmm.. hope it's not that virus that's gg ard... I need to go to school.. Got no more time left with my students.. haiz..

YEAR END Holidays!!

Finally, i am able to travel to VN!! Yippee.. I tink this is the thing that's keeping me going in the daily hassle of school.. I am so bogged down by work that i thot i was gg into depression soon.. BUt anyway, i am working myself out of this..

Anyway, back to my holidays.. I will be gg to 2 places end of this year! Vietnam and HK!! Yeah! Not that i am rich la, but cuz i wanna go and visit some frenz of mine.. And anyway, cuz our main aim is to visit frenz, i don't think we will buy anything.. hahaha.. It's 2 budget tours.. WEEZZ..

Mich Lim and me will travel to HCM on the 4th, then we slowly make our way up to Hanoi to see tung, trang etc.. I'm thinking of gg back to Hoa Sua to see if Vinh is there.. And frenz at Youth Hotel, students from Hoa Sua who are working now.. So many ppl to meet up with.. Dun know if got enough time of now.. But if we don't go to HCM, it'll be so funny cuz we've been to VN for 3 times and we din even visit HCM before.. that's a joke lor.. hmm..

Then from the 14-17th of Dec, Ice and me will go to HK to visit Robert and he agreed to bring us ard HK.. Hee hee.. So nice.. And he even said that he will call the other 2 participants from AKF 7 years ago!! hee hee.. hmmm.. got catching up to do then.. He sent me this pic.. Saying that he will contact them to meet up with us when we are in HK.. haha.. 3 "must do" things that we will do when we are in HK,
1) Visit Robert ( the one wearing strips in the picture and his 2 "monsters" at home.. )
2) Visit his dojo (but we don't wanna train there leh.. though he said he wanna lend us gi and sparring equipment.. ahh.. we dun wan.. very diu lian de..)
3) Eat!!

This pic is taken 7 yrs ago.. Wonder how they had changed..

tuesdays with Morrie Part 2

Quote:

Tension of Opposites. Life is a series of pulls back and forth. U want to do something but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet u know it shouldn't. You take certain things for granted, even when u know you should never take anything for granted. A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubberband. And most of us lives in the middle.

So which side wins? Morrie answered, Love wins, Love always wins.

We do take a lot of things for granted.. And we do that consiously and sub consiously.. I asked myself, if one day, i will not be able to see and i become blind. Wat would become of me? Can i still be a teacher? Can i still see the beautiful sunset, the birds, the sky or the sea? Can i still experience the lit up faces of the children, my students, my family, my friends? If 1 day, i m crippled, will i be able to go to places where i want to go? Will i be able to go overseas and travel to the less travelled countries? If 1 day, i would just lose the use of any of the body parts that i always take for granted, what will happen to me? What will I do?? How will i react? Will i still be the strong positive person i m now?

I was reading the book on the bus these days.. However, i always stop before i reach my destination. Cuz i will always tear at some point in the book. Today, i saw the part till the journalist asked Morrie, what will he do if 1 day, he loses the use of his hands, and you could no longer talk, how would u communicate? Morrie replied that he will need the ppl to ask him yes and no qns.. Then he asked on silence, morrie's good fren, Maurie is now deaf, imagine morrie being unable to speak and maurie unable to hear. What would that be like?

Morrie's reply was "we will hold hands. And there'll be a lot of love passing between us. 35 yrs of friendship, u dun need speech or hearing to feel that." I asked myself, how many ppl's hand have i held? How many ppl's hearts have i touched? I won't have frenz of 35 yrs. Frenz are never counted in the no of yrs we know each other. It's the kind of vibes or whatever you call that, that makes us click and become frenz. I can know ppl from my primary school and yet, that person that i know may not even be as close as someone that i had known just for months!

I have held my mum's hand before she left me. The feeling of that never leaves my heart and will never be gone till the day i join her. However, what abt my family, my dad? How long have i not hold his hand? Since i was in primary school.. I tink.. That was a long time back.. Why is there a need to hold hands? I always thot holding hands as something very close and personal.. I dun hold hands with ppl.. not even close frenz.. I will feel very uncomfortable.. In fact, hand holding are for people who are very close to each other.. Parent and child, husband and wife, couples.. they share a bonding between each other.. That's why they hold hands, isn't it?? But do the couples in this present age know why they hold hands??

There's a particular time when Morrie went into class, he sat there without talking for a cool 15 mins.. Everyone in the class became very embarrassed by the deep silence. Some became agitated and think when is he gg to say something? some squirm and kept looking at the watches, some looked out of the window trying to be above it all.. The main topic he was on was abt the effect of silence on human relations. Y r we embarrassed by silence? wat comfort do we find in all the noise? If i were in a situation like this, i would be uncomfortable too.. BUt now, i tink, being silent with another party or a group is ok.. It's alright.. Let the unsaid feelings flow to the other party.. That sometimes, might be more effective than talking.. Next time i would just let the silence fall and see wat happens.. haha..

Tuesdays with Morrie

I am reading this book that i borrowed from sin.. Been wanting to borrow this book from him some time ago but kept forgetting the title.. Today i manage to get it from him.. Read the first chapters.. It's a good book.. And it's touching.. A lot of insights.. Anyway, the idea of a "living funeral" strucks me hard.. What's the point of telling the whole world that the dead person is such a wonderful person when that one lying in the coffin might never know how good he/she was? Shouldn't we tell the people that we love and cherish how wonderful they are?? It's always simple to pen my thoughts down rather than telling it to others.. It's always easier for me to express my concern n love to friends rather than my own family.. I always detest such character of mine.. But i decided to show my concern by actions.. By showing that i care for them.. Making my dad, sis, bro-in-law and my niece n nephew smile is a way of showing.. That's what i will do..

Wat abt keeping in contact with yr friends from long ago?? Are u free to meet up with them?? To me, friends are an important component in my life.. I treat everyone i meet as a friend unless they prove me otherwise.. Getting me to share with frenz is easy but once i dun trust u, i think i will be more reserved when i share.. But those who knows me, i guess u will love me as i am.. I am thankful and grateful for that.. If u want me to list down the friends that i cherished the most, i tink it'll be difficult.. But i will try listing the friends that's in my mind now.. Haha.. But if your name is not in here, please contact me, and i will tell u why... haha... BTW, names are not in order of preference....

Judy, AP, Ice, Shang, JJ, Gareth, Huiting, BK, Terence, Serene, Chrystal, CS, Jo, Joan, CH, Abbey, SW, Sharon, Liyan, Mich Lim, Mich Koh, Feliz, Tung, Thanh, Lam, Linh, Robert, Alvin, Zhicong, CK, Sensei, Jiahui, Shuping, Uncle & Auntie Tan, Ken, Robert, Shirley, Zhang Yong

Well, oF course, this list is not exhaustive.. But am i able to care for all of them at a go.. On top of that, i've got my family members too.. haha.. So my heart needs to be very very very big to be able to love all of them.. Hee hee. SO dear family and frenz, U know i love u all very very very much.. muackz... hugz...

WIll share more in future if i m not that lazy.. haha..

End of hols soon..

TGIF.. But i not that happy la.. Cuz the HOLS ARE ENDING SOON!!! SObbie.. But on a positive note, the dec hols are coming soon too.. haha.. Attended some SEED courses during this hols and i see myself preparing for the teaching aids for next year during this yr end hols too amidst the moving of school and stuff.. Wonder how i will be able to cope.. Well.. chuan dao qiao tou zi ran zhi.. I hope..

4th Sep - Went for a course in the morning after the training on sun.. After the course, we went for the mass lecture.. Adjorn to Joan's place to teach her how to play mahjong with jo and km.. Haha.. 1 more kaki..

5th Sep - Went to Villa Bali to celebrate Jo's bd with AP, Joan, CH but SW actually pang seh us.. SO darn sad.. THat place is beautiful.. THough food is real ex la.. Per person ard 30 bucks.. But the ambience is worth it and the food's not too bad..

AP refuses to be in the pic.. so sad..

An artistic shot.. CH became e 1st class photographer..

6th Sep - went back to school to set the papers.. Spent a noon there and after that, went to liyan's chalet.. It's so sweet of her.. She actually booked a chalet to celebrate her parents' 30th wedding anniversary..

Me and Mich in the pool.. Happy...

7th Sep - Was in the school from 11am till 6pm to set the exam paper.. My eyes really nearly popped out after the staring at the com for 5-6 hrs.. Really Almost brain dead.. So when i went for training, my eyes became so dry that i kept closing it.. Anyway, luckily there were no sparring.. But Terence's basic training is so tough on the legs.. Ah.. The aftermath of not training enough...

8th Sep - Went for a course at chongfu pri in the morn.. So met up with sin after the course at sembawang shopping centre.. Went to the thai restaurant that he raved abt all the time.. haha.. Yummy yum.. It's real good.. and cheap.. Fun part, we went to Yishun Safra to bowl.. Wow.. There were a grp of 7 children from P1-P3 at the lane beside ours.. They started to talk to us.. Hee hee.. had a fun time talking and yakking away with them.. cuz they were soo... cute.. Most of them were from MGS, 1 from St nic and 1 boy from Ai tong.. All the good schools.. The kids were there to celebrate 1 of the gal's bd.. hee hee.. They cheered when we striked/spare, when my ball went into the drain, they laughed.. haha.. Fun time with them ard..they were all talking to me at the same time, well, that's usual of kids, my students does that too.. Hee hee.. So funny... If they stayed longer, i would have known their family history and all.. Cuz they were answered all the qns i asked.. So innocent.. Anyway, sin's so mean, i remembered him telling the boy that they dun wanna play with him le.. Cuz they all wanted to go swimming though the boy wanted to cont bowling.. I tink the boy was very happy to have us talking to him la.. Poor fellow, the thorn among the roses.. But too bad, i din take pic with them.. Forgot abt it.. so sad.. Anyway, i had a fun time bowling with sin la.. Both of us total score only hit 200 plus.. haha.. so u know how bad we are at bowling.. The strikes and spares are all fluke.. haha.. at least i remembered to take a pic with him with my "self-taking" skill.. not bad la.. Though his head is being cut off.. haha..

Best Teachers Day Gift..

This yr, i didn't really enjoy receiving presents from the students.. But anyway, funny thing is the best gift i received is not from a student.. Instead, it's from a colleague of mine - Abbey.. She sent me a sms this afternoon...
This is wat she said:
Because you have been such a terrific teacher i have decided to donate a small sum of money to the President's Star Charity on your behalf. Have a most meaningful Teachers' Day Blessings.

When i saw the msg, i was so touched by her..
Thank you so much Abbey.. Hugz hugz..

Outram Centennial Dinner

Yday was the Outram Sec Centennial Dinner at Mandarin Hotel (as usual).. My table was occupied with 4 ladies who were students in Outram in 1960s... OOps.. ok.. Then came a cute guy that joined our table.. Hmm.. He graduated in 2000.. Me in 1997.. hee hee. He's my junior in Student Council... I couldn't remember him at all lor.. But he did la.. He said i look familiar... Anyway, he spotted my picture on the booklet too lor.. Wa.. Sharp eyes.. Alvin - Hey, u made it to the front cover again.. haha.. Me - Ya.. yaya.. Of all pictures of the council, they had to choose that ugliest one with me laughing so hysterically.. &*&Y%&) When my junior went out to get the Centennial Commemerative book, they were actually teasing me saying that maybe we can find another picture of me inside! EEks.. True enough, it was that same pic blew up to the whole page!! Duh.. Why that pic???!! I saw another 1 at the back with the coucil standing nicely together one.. Why dun choose that one?? Ok.. nvm.. Think they find that pic natural la.. Ok ok.. So i had to get that book lor.. Spent $60.. haha.. So for this stupid dinner, a total of $120 excl cab fare of 20 bucks.. hmm.. Fire in the HOLE!!

A junior of mine in the Student Council..

With Mr Lee and Ms Tan in the centre

AKF is over..

Haiz.. AKF (Asia Karate Federation) Tournament is over.. I miss the tournament... During the tournament i could forget abt school and work.. I could concentrate on something that i really love - Karate.. Though i din take part in the events, i was running the table officials.. I was very busy but Happy.. THe senseis and referees were good to us.. And though it's cadet and junior categories, the participants fought real well.. I think as usual, we were still as gaga over the Japan Team.. haha.. As usual..
Chairman of AKF was so fierce to the participants, he simply scolded them over the mic to get them to move fast.. He even asked me to scold them,.. haha.. I wont dare lor.. Dun see the people junior junior ah.. Some of the guys from the Middle East were taller than me lor(at least 1 head)! Shihan Yamamura couldn't speak EL well as he's a Jap la.. So when he was planning out the team kumite(sparring), I had to guess his meaning lor.. Hee hee.. But luckily, with my cong ming cai zhi, i understood and could actually anticipate the next court to use.. So he was kinda of impressed.. Haha.. As long as i din diu xin jia po de lian jiu hao...
I thought the matches in the ring are good enoough.. But who knows, the best came on the last day after the prize giving.. As a guy from Kuwait couldn't find his bag, i think he blamed another Iran fellow for taking it.. So this 2 countries already so unhappy with each other in the beginning, a fight soon ensue... wow!! Wat a sight! Seeing the guys throwing chairs and hitting each other.. Thank goodness, i was with the Jap team at the gallery.. But as what i can see, none of the countries went forward to stop them which is the correct move, if other countries join in, wah.. the scene will be even more huo bao!
you peng zi yuan fang lai, bu yi le hu.. We met the participant from HK who joined the previous AKF held in singapore 7 years ago.. Haha.. Robert was a participant then and now he's the team manager.. And well, he's a Shihan now.. Hmm.. He recognised Ice first and he said she's so fierce.. Haha.. Well, if she is not, the team managers from the middle east will never come and register their players lor.. So we had a good catching up after the tournament.. We went out to KTV on sunday with the HK team coach.. Judy was too tired to join us.. Too bad.. U missed a good voice.. This is the first time i hear someone singing so well in cantonese (well, of course, he's a Hong Konger) But i tell u, his voice is splendid... The team coach's singing also not bad la but not as good as him.. I forced him to sing a lot of songs.. Haha.. The funny thing was when i sang hao xin fen shou with him.. I sang with a broken cantonese, he sang with a broken chinese.. haha.. He even sang a hokkien song with me! But i was laughing till my voice became so coarse.. hee hee.. Funny siah.. So if i go to HK in dec, i will surely get him to bring me around.. With a di tou she, the trip will always be fun! hee hee..

Driving, I drove!!

WOWOoo.. Thank Goodness i went to get my PDL today lor!! Heng ah.. Cuz i managed to go out onto the roads to drive today woh! Cool siah... Haha.. As expected, i si chia at least 10 times today! haha..
3 things i learnt abt myself today..
1) I am too kan cheong!! Cant drive well under stress.. muahaha..
2) I get so confused with the clutch, brake and acce.. These movements of changing gear have to come naturally soon.. If not, i'll be stoning on the road trying to figure out wat to do first?? CLutch, brake? Brake , Clutch? CHange gear?? ERRR???
3) I am a strong gal.. Haha.. I used so much strength for many things.. I released the hand brake so hard that the instructor asked me to use lesser strength.. I shifted the gear so hard that he nearly pengz.. I can't seem to push the accerl gently and the engine jus went vroom!!.. hee hee.. THe power of karate.. haha..

P.S.: I am supposed to be marking the compos now.. BUT.. WHY AREN'T I TOUCHING THEM?? cUZ I CANT BE BOTHERED TO!!! MUAHAHAHA.. Laziness seeped in.. I slept for 3 hrs after reaching home and i went off for driving after the nap.. SO the COMPOS WILL BE IN MY BAG UNTOUCHED AND I WILL BRING IT BACK TO SCHOOL TMR..

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Normally i have trouble trying to figure out wat to write for the title.. haha.. So now i will jus leave it blank lor.. Ya.. as most of u who visit my blog realize, i have got a new look!! well, it's cuz of my dear niece, cass, she keeps complaining abt the layout of my blog.. So she offered to change it for me.. Ok la.. Jus to stop her from grumbling.. here's my new blog look!!

Anyway, i never felt that "productive" for this year, i was simply marking and marking for the past 2 days that i think i feel like puking le! haiz.. the amt of marking is totally overwhelming!!! YUCKs!

I see myself being busier next yr! Should I be honest and tell the boss tat i can't take so much stress?? I am not that super neither am i interested?? I am getting very scared(+stressed) just by thinking of the work i m in for next year...

Young ME!!

Irene gave me some pics that she dug out from her photo albums.. Oh my!! Disastrous.. So i will just show some better pics of myself when i was young, the rest.. haha.. Sorry.. Not for public viewing..
I think i took this when i was in primary school.. I am not too sure of when i took this pic lor.. Anyway, that was the time when my hair were short and wavy.. Janet jie jie says it look like nest.. hahaha.. So mean of her.. ANyway, i hate this hairstyle, that's y u will never see me in short hair again ever.. Unless i know how to maintain it..


I was only 5 years old in this pic.. I am so CUTE!! haha.. This is outside my old house in Margaret Drive and there's a jackfruit tree behind me.. If i m not wrong, the person taking this pic is my sis, Irene, and she was the one to tell me to hold my dress... Well, i did.. shyly.. hahaha.. So dainty.. hee.. I wonder if i will ever see myself in dresses again leh.. hahaha.. Think i wore too many dresses when i was young and that causes me not to like dress now..

P.S.: For info only, my name Jasmine, is given to me by Irene jie jie... She's the one who chose this name if i m not wrong..

Helen the Baby Fox

After the ND celebration in school, i went to cineleisure to watch this show with sin.. As usual, i was the one who suggest the show.. Initially i wanted to watch the lake house but then, this show seems like a more interesting show.. So off we went to see this.. Maybe right from the beginning, i knew that the fox will die.. So i am kinda sad and on few occasions, i was close to tears.. I just cant bear to see animals die lor.. Haiz..
With the love and patience the boy gave to the fox, the fox managed to call out and led a fulfilling "long" life.. Instead of jus a short unbearable few days of lifespan, the fox managed to survive for 3 weeks... To see the fox suffering in the end was sad.. When the fox died, i just couldn't control my tears anymore..
Well, i think this is the first time sin saw me cry in the movies.. haha.. He didn't really react much, he said something to me but i couldn't hear him cuz i was busy crying.. oops.. hee hee.. So with that crying, my nose just got more blocked.. haha..
After the show, we went to magic wok for dinner, luckily we managed to get seats fast and the food came fast too.. So we settled our dinner within an hour.. Hee hee... Cuz after the dinner, we went to SEE FIREWORKS!!!
Cool cool.. THe fireworks are so beautiful!!! But we only managed to see the high fireworks as we were just outside the raffles city.. Still, it's fantastic.. THe only thing is when sin said something abt taxpayers' money going up in smoke, i laughed at his statement.. But he REally is a mood spoiler lor!! Such nice fireworks and he said that! Haha..
I would want to watch the sat fireworks too.. I think it'll be very nice too!! Any takers???

YES!! THE LAST NE EVENT!!!

YIPPEE!! The laast... NE event is OVER!!! PHEW! Ya.. I am talking abt the National Day Celebration in the school.. I think SW and Liz did a GOOD JOB! Ppl say they organize it well and the program ran smoothly.. I am glad for them.. As for me, i am just happy that all 4 core events are over and now wat i m worried abt is the framework.. haiz.. But nevertheless, i am still glad..