现实是残酷的

当你被你最亲近、最敬爱的人欺骗时，你会有什么感受？气愤、失望、满脑子的为什么？当他一而再，再而三地说谎时，你还会相信他的话吗？不会！我不会再相信他！但是，为什么我心里的某一个角落却在无助、悲凉地说“再相信他一次吧！原谅他吧！他有他的苦衷、苦处啊!悲伤、寂寞、没有人生目标的人，你怎么还能忍心谴责他呢？更何况，你又有什么权力谴责一个给予你生命又如此疼爱你的人呢？”
‘为什么要自讨苦吃！’‘你能够帮得了多久？多少？’‘到最后，辛苦的将会是自己’这些都也是一些至亲至爱的人劝告之语。我也了解他们对我的关爱。但是，我不知道该怎么向他们解释我的心情及心态。我只能心领了。我不是自讨苦吃，我只是别无他选。我不是没想过到底我还得帮多久、多少 - 只是，我不想等到将来，永远失去了他，才来后悔为何现在的我没有尽全力让他快乐。这一天一定会到来，也许会是今年，也许会在不久的将来，我真的不想到那时才来后悔。因为，后悔莫及、悔不当初的心情会比现在来得更痛苦。


人，要是能更无情、更无心、会不会比较快乐？能够无情的话，那么，无论是爱情、友情还是亲情，哪一种情都不会有任何机会伤到我了，不是吗？哈哈！可惜啊！想归想，我能这么潇洒、超脱吗？不可能！别说笑了！如果我能这样洒脱的话，我还会在这儿写这些吗？

好累啊...心累了...人累了...身累了...精神累了...好想就抛开这里的一切烦恼，逃到天涯海角、世界的另一端...但...好可惜啊...又是一个不可能的事啊！

Finally decided to get a start!!

WOh!! Why am i Here?? HEe hee.. Cuz i just saw some of my frenz' blogs and i got inspired to get one too!! A stupid reason but HeCK!! Who cares siah?? ha ha...
And this blog is just as well.. I am getting too super Stresssed with my work and Stuffz.. Spent my MAr HOLS SettiNG exam Papers!! Super sianz.. Haiz... I didn't expect teaching to be such a demanding job!! Didn't we always see our teachers going off early and they have their school Hols just like the students?? Shiok right!! But omg!! DREAM ONZ!!!
But what to do?? The bond is for 3 years!! HEe hee.. die die also must stay on.. if not, I will pay thru MY NOSE!! Read the news lately?? THe trainee teacher who failed her last sem (CUz of PracticuM) had to pay for breach of contract!! She's paying by installments! Guess how long she has to pay!! 40 years!! BOY!!
Hmmm... I am getting a bit negative here.. hmmm... sorry ah!! first entry and it's all complains.. but anyway, i will try to put in some good things some other day lah.. today's not a good day.. tmr doesn't seem good either... hahahaha