Pesta Sukan '05

Wow.. Pesta Sukan is here again and I am happy that this year i am able to go and see it again.. Thinking back on the days where i was the participants, i used to train so hard (6 times a week) just to be on the arena for only about 2 mins.. But then, it was fun! Seeing yr team mates fight and win, yr heart and soul will be beating for them.. For the winning moment, you will scream and shout! If they lose, then we will have to console them.. This is team spirit.. It had been a long time since i felt this way..
Today, there are only 5 participants from KSK, it's kinda of sad for me.. However, on the hand, though we only sent out 5, we got 2 golds and 2 other medals(dun know wat standing).. So it's still GOOD!! Especially when i see Jiajun fight, we know he will definitely win but to see him on the ground, wow.. He is fascinating.. The sweep he did on the participant was splendid, winning within a minute is a feat! I think it's almost certain that he represent Singapore for the SEA games.. Ken had won a bronze medal in the previous SEA games.. I sincerely hope that Jiajun will be able to get the GOLD!! Let's see if i will be able to go and support him in the SEA games.. If Terence could go too, i think it'll be even better!!

Am i a good teacher??

I have this question since the day i stepped into the teaching world.. Don't be too fast to scold me, dear friends.. Most of the people ard me will say "hey come on, yr students loved you!" "you are capable" etc etc.. However, i myself know clearly how much i put in for them.. Even if i put in a lot, the results may not be there.. Whenever i am in class, i always have the feeling that i always deliver a very boring lesson, my kids are not learning at all.. Cuz all my lessons are very teacher-centered.. I talk more than they do.. They just sit there and listen.. I am a student once, i dun even listen to my teachers lor! I will switch off! So everytime i see other teachers teaching, the students always pay attention.. I know my students love me.. They prefer me to other teachers cuz i dun scold them that much.. But that's not wat a good teacher is.. I always admire those teachers whom the kids love and respect (and they pay attention) at the same time.. I really dun know.. Sometimes i just feel that i am not cut out to be a teacher.. I am not organized enough.. I always forget what i have to do, leave out something which i should teach, classroom management is horrible... My 5 faith gals dun listen to me at all in class. Do watever they want and dun give a damm to me.. I dun like to teach the wall and teach as if i am talking to myself.. That's wat i feel when i am in 5 faith.. but i dun feel like scolding them when it deprives the time for the rest of the class(which is not many cuz not many are listening).. I dun wanna become a teacher who in the end become bo chup as to what the class is doing and just keep talking as if everyone is listening.. 2 faith/hope is also getting from bad to worse.. forever talking.. I like this class a lot.. they are cute and their work is not that bad.. but now i have to be scolding them every day.. why?? why do i have to do that???

Thanks Ai Pei

Wow.. This entry is especially for dear ai pei.. THanks for yr encouragin email.. I always read my own blog over and over again.. Just to see what i have written and how things have changed for me.. Did realise that my entries are very negative(majority).. hee hee.. Though i try hard to be positive, but i have this habit of thinking and typing at the same time.. so i just type what i think.. Thought this will be a more accurate blog rather than mincing my words right?? eh.. see lah.. I am supposed to thank someone here and what the hell am i doing?? Haiz.. THat's ME!!! Hee.. THanks for understanding.. My close friends cant really understand what i am going thru now cuz they are not in the same system as me.. So they cant feel wat i am going thru.. But u, ai pei, u know cuz u have been thru it.. THanks!! I feel better now but as u know, this is a vicious cycle.. You go thru 1 thing and the next thing will come.. then once again, i will feel sucky over again.. But i will bite my teeth and go thru the challenges.. I know i can achieve if i set my mind on something.. IT's jus that i am a very lazy person and i dun have the determination to do it, that's all.. However, i am really happy and touched to see yr email, ai pei.. It nearly brought me to tears... really..
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And hor, hee hee.. i specially typed in a lot of new entries to let you read.. hahaha... Joking..

Students now are so high tech siah!!

Wow.. Just looked at some of the 6 hope gals' blogs and i realised how dull mine look!!! haha.. OMG!! But heck lah.. I just wanna a simple one to log in all my feelings and stuff in case i burst!! hahaha..

My mood today.. hee hee..

Mood Analysis TestResults for Test Taken Tuesday, July 26, 2005
You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realization of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.
You are very talented, imaginative and sensitive but you are holding back as you do not really like going it 'on your own'. In preference you would like to team up with someone, someone with similar attributes as your own, to explore - to seek out and go perhaps 'where no other man has gone before'. It is the unusual that attracts you and which will give you a sense of excitement and adventure.
All the problems that you have been experiencing of late seem to have become a part of your life and there is little that can be done to change the situation. Your emotions run high - but even though you feel as if at times you are about to burst this situation will pass. Try to release your pent-up emotions by participating in some extra physical activities like running, swimming, whatever. There must be some favorite pastime, not necessarily strenuous, that can help you to relax.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

Waiting for the relief class

So sianz.. So irritating.. wanted to go SSDC to book my basic theory.. Cuz sharon can drive me there wat.. WHo knows, the EV people have to come down at this time and talk and talk and talk till now, already 5.30 and still dun let the teachers come down.. Ms tan is still up there and i've got to relief her class for 1 HR!! So sianz!!! Stupid.. Later got to relief from 5.30-6.00pm again.. ARGH... waste my time only.. I can go home and sleep one lor!!! SO SO SIANZ.. Now idling my time away by chatting with gail and kit ee (These 2 should be studying but always see them online chatting).. Hahaha.. I will tell Sharon abt this... HAHAHA.. I very evil... Muahahaha...

Decided to learn driving!! Finally!

Argh.. stupid me.. type out so many things already and i deleted it all without any way to undo it!!! Shucks.. How unlucky!! ANyway, me jus saying that i've decided to take up driving and hopefully i will be able to get my license within a year.. This will be 1 of the targets that i set for myself.. SO that i will not lose myself in this fast paced society.. I hope to achieve something outside school and getting a driving license will be one of them.. Within a year, i think it is possible for me!! I think so.. Right?? Most of my friends think i'm capable of doing it... Hahaha.. Hopefully, cuz i don't think i will have the extra cash to retake anything.. hahaha..
Life is getting so meaningless for me that i think i must do something meaningful for myself.. haha.. not for others yet, cuz i have to feel that life is good before i can pass that message to others right?? Haha.. Actually no lah.. I know that giving is actually receiving.. I am just hoping that i can have a better control of my time and my emotions.. I am showing too much of my emotions these days.. Mostly negative ones.. So that's not very me.. I should be more prudent in showing my emotions.. Not in the school anyway.. Hahaha.. If in front of close friends, then not so bad.. so if anyone of them got my poisonous sting, then i am sorry.. hee hee.. Ehh.. I am writing something out of context here.. My title is actually driving hor?? Hmmm.. If this is a compo, think i will write out of point liaoz.. hahaha.. but.. wat the heck!!! I am the teacher, i am always right!!! Muahahahaha.... Hope if my students see this, they won't kill me!! OOps..

Oh my dear sandals, how do i live without u??

Haiz.. My sandals are gone since the days i come back from redang.. Then redang trip killed my sandals and my swimsuit(err.. actually my sandals are already almost in the coffin, redang trip pushed it fully into the coffin)!! Now i am desperately in need of a swimsuit and sandals!!! But NO ONE!! I MEAN NO ONE is even FREE enough to go with me to purchase them!! How SAD!! I really wonder why NO ONE is FREE??? Irritating.. Chok Sin never reply if he's free, judy's not free, dun need to mention that 3 fellows who MUST COME out together!! FORGET IT!! I will GO ON MY OWN!!! Who need them anyway!!!

HAHA.. I am iN AGain

Oh my goodness!!! how blur can i get??? I can't remember my own userid & passwork for this blog.. Ha ha... test until i got fed up and cant be bothered to remember anymore!! Haha.. but hey, luckily here got a way to recover the userid!! Phew!! Lucky siah... If not, i will be too lazy to have another new blog already..