思念着你的我

思念

会侵蚀心灵

会令人陷入痛苦

会令人哭泣

在人多时，我会思念你。

在夜深人静时，思念更加剧烈。

每逢佳节倍思亲，这是现在的心情写照。

我很后悔，为什么从来都没跟你说，你对我有多重要，我很爱很爱你，

为什么我在言行举止上，从来未曾表现出我对你有多么地尊敬，多么地心疼你。

我的手，始终留着你紧紧握着我的手的温度
我的眼，始终留着你那慈祥溺爱我的脸庞
我的心，始终留着你对我深深的教诲

记得你还在医院时，每当我离去时，你那渴望我留下的眼神，我的心会被你那眼神揪紧着。

你离开前的那一晚，我怎么没有留久一点？我怎么能在你离开前的最后一晚，还与朋友去玩乐？我怎么能？怎么能？

做了这么多明知不可为而为之的事，你会原谅我吗？你会的，我知道你一定会的。

因为，你是我伟大的妈妈。

~~眼泪好咸，好烫，
烫伤了我的眼，我的心...~~

团圆饭

什么是团圆饭？

那是一家人开开心心地在饭桌前吃着一顿美味的佳肴...

饭后，一家人坐在客厅里天南地北地聊着，也许看看电视。

一家人有说有笑地。

那是一份简单、平凡的快乐，但是这只仅限于别人的家庭。

团圆饭已失去了它应有的意义了。

没有意义的东西，为什么还要勉强地保留着呢？

为什么要那么辛苦呢？这又何苦呢？

My Camera is back with a VENGENCE!! MUahaha..

Hahaha.. My camera's back! Yippeee... Luckily my brother in law is free to go down to anson road for me.. If not, with that opening hours of NIkon, I think i can't even get my camera before CNY! Anyway, I brought my camera to school and took pics already! haha.. But of course, with me and jo so busy with the CNY celebration, we din really take a lot of pics until the end of the day.. haiz.. so sad..

First Pic with the First Guy in oUr School.. Thorn Among the Roses!

Having a reunion lunch in the staff room!

Anyway, the day has ended.. Post mortem of the show we put up, both Jo and me thinks that we didn't do very well for the presentation today.. The kids wasn't paying attention, they didn't respond very well, PA system sucks, either one of us forgetting to click the PowerPoint slides for either party. Haiz.. Jo said that she felt like throwing the mike and walk off... I had the same feeling too lor.. We both felt like fools at that point of time..

Now i m gg for reunion lunch.. Till next time... 新年快乐！祝大家心想事成，幸福快乐！

Quotes of the day

The thing you fear most has no power.
Your fear of it is what has the power.
Facing the truth really will set you free.

Creativity is something that needs to be used in all walks of life.
So rather than thinking you're not a creative person because you don't draw or write poems,
see how you can use creativity in a more holistic way.

I M A BIG BLUR SOTONG!!! Make myself so busy today!!

My day started with me bringing my dad for his checkup at SGH in the morning.. In the train, I received a msg from Shirley saying tat she wanted to meet me in the afternoon.. Somehow, I thot she meant mtg tmr.. So i was happily confirming the time with her..
After the checkup, I wanted to donate blood at HSA but there was too many ppl so i decided to book a date and ask more ppl to come with me after CNY!! Haha.. So i told Jiahui that we will meet at Mount Alvernia to visit Ping and her newborn.. So i took a cab down to Mount Alvernia.. Saw Ping and the baby.. Oh.. How adorable and angelic she is.. CUte.. I only stayed in the room for less than 5 mins when Jiayi told me to go for lunch with them.. Haiz.. Then while on the way to AMK, Shirley msged me and told me that she's 1 stop away from Dolby Ghuat!!!! WAT!!??? Why is she on the way there??!!! Argh.. Reason being, I was supposed to meet her today, not tmr!! OOPS!! Yaya.. I became the laughing stock lor.. So i rushed down from AMK to PS again.. 1 big round!
Well, obviously i was laughed at by Shir lah.. wat else? After lunch, we went shop shop ard for her niece's present.. Wah.. Kids these days, pencil case also must be branded.. Roxy.. Wow.. Sad to say, we got to travel to city link to get that specific pencil case cuz Heeren had no more stock..
Well, at this point of time, i was still trying to confirm the time to meet up with sin.. Oh my.. When he said 8pm, i was like, okie.. that's a good timing, i can still walk ard with Shir.. Cuz i felt quite bad leaving her so early.. She introduced me to a place to drink tea.. Oh my goodness!! That place is super expensive!! The V Tea Place at Esplanade..When u order a slice of cake, they will intro u to the tea that goes well with it.. Well, I m not a tea person.. Din really taste the diff.. But the cake is special with beer.. Ahem.. BTW, that slice of cake cost $15 and that pot of tea cost $17 plus.. So our bill came up to abt $50 plus.. Gulpz.. Well, I have a discount voucher for that place, if u are interested, u can get it from me.. haha.. Shir will be coming tmr to my place to look at my photo albums and dl songs from my cds to her laptop.. Clever gal huh!!
Ok.. Last person to meet for today is sin.. Haiz.. Got to return him the money for the YEP.. Yaya, why so late then i pay him?? It's not my fault.. Blame him!! Well, I really must thank him for driving... I m dead tired from all the travelling!! Super super tired!! I was so elated when he told me to meet him at the taxi stand at AMK!! The dinner was good.. And we went to Bliss after dinner.. I asked Judy to join us but she didn't la.. Tink she wanna go Vernon's hse and rot! haha.. Anyway, sin, thanks for the advice and support.. I tink i really need these now..

Ok.. This is how i spent my Sat!! I m supposed to mark my books lor!! Oh my!!! So how much marking did i do today??!! NIL!!! ARGH!! Gotta do it fast tmr morn before Shir comes.. ARGH!! And from the looks of it, I wont be able to go down for training tmr evening again.. Oh no.. Shang's gonna start grumbling again.. OOPS.. haha.. Okie.. Will try to make it for the Thurs one!! I will try my best!!! ~~KEEPING MY FINGERS CROSSED!~~

Decided to escape from sch!!

haha.. today is friday and i will be meeting Liyan today!! Yippee.. Actually i was jus wondering if i can make it for the appointment at 5.30.. Haiz.. With my record, i think going home to change and bathe is quite impossible! However, haha.. Lucily sharon decided to go home at 4pm.. I hitched a ride from her and lugged all my markings home!! Yippee..
Managed to bathe and catch a cab down to orchard.. Went for sushi tei at taka and i introduced all the good food to Liyan.. Glad that she liked the food there.. I simply enjoy talking to her.. We even took a lot of pics and when Eric came, he helped us to take some nice nice pics.. Really missed the time we had in NIE.. I miss u, LIYAN!! Love yr laughter and silly jokes.. haha..
I was so tempted to go home in a cab but i told myself that i must save money lah.. So I walked to NEL.. Guess who i met! AIPEI!! And she of all things, must scream "MINMIN" in the packed cabin! SO PAI SEH!! But well, i wasn't that soft either lah.. Hee hee.. Well, from the look in her eyes, i know what she wanna say! haha.. My top is too low cut.. She was laughing and giving that look! haha.. Well, she says she will write something in her blog regarding my top.. Haha.. Guess i know wat she wanna say le lah..

Quote for today

Use what talent you possess: the woods would be very silent if no birds sang except those that sang best.

Henry Van Dyke

Zhicong's Wedding

My secondary classmate got married yesterday!! He's the first one in my group to get married.. Well, the rest of them are getting married or ROM soon la.. haiz.. Not like me, 八字的那一撇都还没开始写呢！haha.. But yesterday was fun lah.. First thing I did was to write a script (in mandarin) for Zhicong to read out during the dinner.. Hee hee.. I tried to write very mushy stuff la, but as hard as i try, there's a limit.. CUz i can't take it also.. haha..

Me brainstorming in the room!



















Montage started and i saw myself in some pictures, we are all stunned at the young us in the secondary school days..
Alvin wanted me to be his emcee for his wedding too!! Oh my! I told them to leave me to eat wedding dinner in peace!! But anyway, i think if they ask, I dun think i can decline to help..

我的相机坏了！

我的相机坏了！昨天，我突然发现相继完全不能开了！啊！我的天啊！怎么会这样呢？我特地买了另一个电池，结果还是一样！完了！我必须把相机拿到红山那一带修理啊！

Quote for today

We either make ourselves happy or miserable. The amount of work is the same.

-Carlos Castaneda

First Day Of School

Well, this is the first yr in OLGC that i am in morning session!! WOw.. i am so happy.. Michelle asked me if i am always so perky in the morning.. well, i m happy that i am in morning session!! I can't stand floating... Argh.. So i m thankful that i am off the hook this year! haha.. Anyway, today is a mad frenzy.. I am always feeling lost.. hmm.. let's hope the days will get better as the days pass..
Today I was supposed to meet Zhicong and Alvin at 3pm to discuss the wedding this Sunday. However, i had to postpone the time to 4.30pm.. Haiz.. But guess what, i only manage to leave school at 4.40pm.. GREAT! I am super late! Haha.. Luckily these 2 fellows didn't kill me.. OopS..

It's interesting to hear how they feel about their relationship with their other one. Zhicong was saying that as the girl upgrade the status from fren to girlfriend to wife, the expectations upgraded too, just like a package. However, the guy will not be able to meet up with the expectations and then the girl will say that he don't love her as much as before or she will start to complain about the difference.. It is like jumping high jump, once u cross a certain height, the girl will start to raise the pole and it gets higher and higher till one day, the guy will not be able to jump over.. Interesting analogy..
Alvin said this, " I might be super, i am a man, BUT, I am not SUPERMAN!" haha..
I presented my own theory, woman and man have different expectations and are on different grounds once they are married.. During courtship, woman and man base their relationship on LOVE.. After marriage, woman still base the relationship on LOVE, however, man base it on RESPONSIBILTY.. This is where they start to have disagreement and wives start to complain..
I enjoyed talking to them, it's good to know how the man feels when they are in a relationship and cuz i am not their other part, i find their theories and insights funny and interesting. Haha..

There are alot of books and GURUs telling us all about Love and relationship between man and woman.. However, there is no right and wrong answers.. HUMANS.. we are just PLAIN IRRITATING.. We can't get what we want and we will start to complain..

P.S.: SKF stands for Singapore Karate-do Federation

A new Year, A new Beginning??

Well.. I don't think so.. I think a new beginning can happen anytime and anywhere.. Not neccessarily be done in a nEw year.. For me, I don't have any new year resolution.. Cuz i don't believe in it.. I will not keep to the resolution.. hee hee.. So i will set targets along the way of my life but still keep the options open and mind flexible.. Good and bad i will say.. Good that i will be flexible and adapt to changes but bad in the sense that i might change too often that i will lose focus on what i am doing. This year will be a challenging year and i do hope i can do my work well and good.. I will try my best to be more "on" and hardworking rather than sitting on stuff.. haha.. that's the reason why i am at home now.. I had to complete an online course and i HAD completed it.. I guess.. haha.. ANyway, the next 2 things on my list is typing out the NE targets and lessonplan for this week.. I will do it right after this entry.. I will do it!!

SKF Dinner

Went for the SKF dinner on the 30th, saw alot of old karate-ka frenz at the dinner.. And as usual, Ice, Judy and me are the ones moving ard and saying hi to senseis and members of the other karate clubs. So sad that Jiajun had to sit with the SKF squad and not with us.. But luckily, he did come over alot of times and we took lots of pics with him too.. I enjoyed the dinner so much.. Makes me feel that i am back to the good old days when i trained karate..

They invited James Wong and we took pictures with him.. He's very friendly and very TALL!! Just like JJ and shang.. When we took pics with him, we can't even block him and JJ at all!! haha..

Sensei Chia is looking better and more handsome now.. Seems like retirement from school is doing him lots of good!! haha..

After the dinner, Jiajun, Terence, judy, ice and me went to serangoon gardens to have some coffee.. Jackie and 师姐 joined us too.. We talked till 2am in the morning before going home. haha.. poor Ice.. She gotta send JJ, Terence and Judy home first..

King Kong and Narnia

I watched king kong with Chok Sin last night and i think the show is good. I think the show started slowly in the beginning and it's quite boring.. However, the show gets real exciting at the "neverland" where prehistoric animals and humans still remains. King kong is such an interesting animal. Till now, i think no one knows why he's so infatuated with that girl. There was 1 particular part that makes me cringe.. The part where a big slug (i think it's a slug, not very sure what it is lah) is eating up the man! ARGH!! Disgusting!! I hate slugs, it reminds me of maggots ( I go weak when i see maggots). Haha.. I think he saw me cringe and he told me not to look at the scene..
Anyway, the whole show is very long and i think it's so straining on the backside! haha..
After that, we had our late dinner(or supper) and we exchanged the gifts. haha.. He didn't manage to guess what i bought for him!! Hee hee.. I like the cute drinking glasses he got me, but i don't think i will use it cuz it's small and i dun wanna break it either..

Met up with the 3 babes today and we went to watch Narnia at AMK.. haha.. 2 shows in a row.. But i think Narnia is good too! The scenes are beautiful and i simply love magical stuff!! The unicorn, fawns, witch.. Aslam(the lion) is simply magnificient!! I will definitely want to watch it again if my brother buys the dvd.. Fantastic show! After which, we went to Denise house to see Max and Lilo and we exchange gifts after that.

Xmas coming!

wOW... Today's 23rd already and Xmas is round the corner!! Wow!! Well, with the steps of Xmas coming soon, that means school will open soon too!! Haha.. Well, let me enjoy the festive first lah! hee hee.. I went for pedicure today and Auntie Sonia did a great job! I will be out to Uncle Tan's house then to Shuping's hse after that.. Think i will be there for to almost midnight ba..
Then on the 25th, I will be at Simon kor kor's hse! Actually i am not that excited about gg there in the beginning, but yesterday i heard from Ah boy kor kor that he will be proposing to Germaine jie jie on that day!!! WAH!!!! Haha.. He already prepared 100 roses and the ring for the big thing! haha.. I am now super excited and waiting to see him do that!! haha... Brave of him right? haha.. But I wanted someone to come out with me on that day but then that someone is not free to come out, though i am disappointed but i will not say it.. hee hee.. cuz i am meeting that someone on another day le... haha..

Well, in case i have no time to write any entries during xmas.. I will now wish everyone who's reading this,

A MERRY XMAS!!! Enjoy this holiday season and be happy!!

Phew.. Finally finished the shoes...

Wow.. No zoo today and thus me and peipei went to Compass Point for lunch and then shop shop around.. So came home early and I had time to do the 3 pairs of shoes!
Well, I really have no inspiration to do the shoes and therefore, i tink i didn't do a very good job.. So sad.. The first pair is mine and quite worn out already.. and the yellow one is for my niece, followed by the pair for judy and finally, the purple one is my new pair! haha.. Didn't do much painting this time round cuz i am lazy, so i jus pin the flowers on lor.. Lazy Lazy fellow!! haha...

Rebonded my hair today!

haha.. Dearest Pei pei had cramps today and she cant go to the zoo.. So sadly, our zoo trip is cancelled.. I was very disappointed but obviously i won't want to go to the Zoo with a sick fellow.. So too bad lah.. We had to postpone our trip..
So instead of the Zoo, I went to rebond my hair today!! haha.. Wanted to do the coloring too but the hairdresser said that my hair's condition is not that good to take the harsh chemicals.. So.. Too bad... I can only rebond my hair..
I feel so sorry for Violet, she must be having muscle aches tonight.. haha.. My hair is so thick that I spent 6 hrs plus in the salon today!! Oh MY GOodness!!! I am seriously having stiff neck now and my butt hurts! haha..

And err.. I think i will not be writing the YEP entries le.. haha.. too lazy... haha..

Sleepy..

Okie.. now i am waiting for the trsf to be done and i can go to sleep.. I am so.. tired now!! But still, i am excited abt gg to the zoo tmr.. err.. no, it's today.. Hee hee.. Went out with Ivy, Jo and Denise in the noon and talked with them.. haha.. we were trying so hard to get Ivy to come back to OLGC.. She's now trying to find out which is the better choice for her..
After that, i rushed home to change and met Yupeng for dinner.. Well.. It's bad of me to be late lah.. Changed the time and yet i am late.. Haiz... Feel so sorry.. But anyway, thanks for the dinner and I guess he didn't have his fill lah.. Serving too small.. OOps.. But I had an enjoyable evening at bliss.. Hope he did too.. haha.. I didn't know or i forgotten that he stayed in Jurong, if i knew or remembered, i will meet him in town instead.. Haiz.. Okie.. When we will meet next time, i shall suggest town then.. hee hee..

UV Moments - 3rd dec

Day 3
We had a lunch with the teachers and principal of the school.. All of them were very friendly and we had a nice time chatting.. After lunch, we went to the school and we played some games with the students.. Musical Chairs.. to the kids there, it was something new and fun..

Day 4
It's a super busy day for us today..
Bright and early in the morning, we went to the school to help them clean the classrooms.. Me and mich were busy with other things ( i can't remember wat we were busy with but i know we didn't help much with the cleaning!! haha..) They had a hard time cleaning cuz of all the debris and we didn't have much cleaning equipment.. Kids in singapore, do be grateful for wat u have in the classrooms..
Before and After the cleaning...

Next is the commune tour and cultural exchange... So right after cleaning, we had to go back to take shower and get ready for the singing.. To the UV LIGHTers, this is the first time they encounter how much the Vietnamese LOVE Singing.. haha.. The villagers were singing and singing that we had to perform some songs for them too.. Cuz they have no entertainment, they are very good at singing and dancing.. Having said that, u can imagine how embarassed we were when we couldn't really sing and dance... haiz..

After lunch, we stopped by a stall and had sua chua(yoghurt).. My goodness, I really miss the sua chua there!!! Yummy!!

Then, we went to CEES to meet up with a group of University students from Vietnam Uni.. They are there for a camp and tonight is their campfire.. As usual, they wowed us with singing and dancing... haha.. And we had a mini fashion show of our cultural costumes..

After a long day, we went back to the hotel and we prepared a surprise for Mingyew, our birthday boy!!! We gave him roses and sang him birthday song..

My handwriting analysis!!

haha.. this is fun.. Accurate siah! Especially accurate are the ones in bold.. haha.. Fun fun fun!! If u want to join in the fun, go to this website.. http://www.handwritingwizard.com/

******* The Analysis Starts Here *******
The spacing on the page reflects the writer's attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Jaz has left lots of white space on the left side of the paper. Jaz fills up the rest of the page in a normal fashion. If this is true, then Jaz has a healthy relationship to the past and is ready to move on. The right side of the page represents the future and Jaz is ready and willing to get started living now and planning for the future. Jaz would like to leave the past behind and move on.

Jaz has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

Jaz is very self-sufficient. She is trying not to need anyone. She is capable of making it on her own. She probably wants and enjoys people, but she doesn't "need" them. She can be a loner.

Jaz's true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Jaz that she wasn't a great and beautiful person, and she believed them. Jaz also has a fear that she might fail if she takes large risks. Therefore she resists setting her goals too high, risking failure. She doesn't have the internal confidence that frees her to take risks and chance failure. Jaz is capable of accomplishing much more than she is presently achieving. All this relates to her self-esteem. Jaz's self-concept is artificially low. Jaz will stay in a bad situation much too long... why? Because she is afraid that if she makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Jaz to plan too far into the future. She kind of takes things on a day to day basis. She may tell you her dreams but she is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud she speaks, look at her actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Jaz is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.

In reference to Jaz's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Jaz slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project. She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Jaz can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

Jaz will be candid and direct when expressing her opinion. She will tell them what she thinks if they ask for it, whether they like it or not. So, if they don't really want her opinion, don't ask for it!

Jaz will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Jaz believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

Jaz is moderately outgoing. Her emotions are stirred by sympathy and heart rendering stories. In fact, she can be kind, friendly, affectionate and considerate of others. She has the ability to put herself into the other person's shoes. Jaz will be somewhat moody, with highs and lows. Sometimes she will be happy, the next day she might be sad. She has the unique ability to get along equally well with what psychology calls introverts and extroverts. This is because she is in between. Psychology calls Jaz an ambivert. She understands the needs of both types. Although they get along, she will not tolerate anyone that is too "far out." She doesn't sway too far one way or the other. When convincing her to buy a product or an idea, a heart rendering story could mean a great deal to her. She puts herself in the same situation as the person in the story, yet she will not buy anything that seems overly impractical or illogical. Jaz is an expressive person. She outwardly shows her emotions. She may even show traces of tears when hearing a sad story. Jaz is a "middle-of-the-roader," politically as well as logically. She weighs both sides of an issue, sits on the fence, and then will decide when she finally has to. She basically doesn't relate to any far out ideas and usually won't go to the extreme on any issue.

People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Jaz doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.