Finally, the sep hols are coming.. Though it's not a very long break, however, it's better than nothing.. Without any break is mentally and physically tiring.. A lot of things to be done in a short span of time..
Last week was a bad week for me, i was always scolding my p2 and p5 classes.. Last friday, i even cried in the toilet after scolding the p5 class.. I felt very useless.. I blame myself for them not listening to my lessons.. The reason is simple, my lesson is boring.. ANd i do admit it.. I told shang this incident and he actually scolded me for crying again.. He asked me to be stronger and stop being so emotional.. I am trying very hard to be strong, but sometimes, i just feel very vulnerable and i jus hope that i can let off my steam by crying.. It's very hard to explain why i am feeling so low and sad.. Cuz not many ppl know of my personal problems.. School is just 1 part of the stress i am feeling now.. Today when i was marking the p5 books, I saw Ruiqi's note to me.. She appologized to me.. I think by scolding the ppl who disrupts the class and ignoring the rest is very unfair to the good gals.. Waste too much time concentrating on the problems..
I bought a book recently "whale done".. It's about fostering positive relationship.. I think by looking at the results of my 2 classes, my approach for term 3 is a mistake.. They are not improving at all.. So now, i must read the book and try to apply the principles in my class.. Hopefully, things will turn for the better in term 4..
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
must love dogs..
wow.. 1 of the best shows i watched in the past 2 months.. A nice romantic flick.. A simple story of 2 simple people who fall into a simple love relationship.. It's just the work of fate that brings 2 persons together.. If u are meant for each other, somehow or rather, u will be together.. Courage, love, forgiveness, trust, humour is wat i learn from the show.. the courage to face the person u love when u did something wrong, forgiving that person u love that she can and will fault again but trust that she will go back to u eventually..
P.s.: actually i am now in a dreamy state cuz it's already almost 3am in the morning and i just finished marking some compos.. so if i seem a bit off, i am off... cuz i dun really understand what i am writing up there.. if u do, good for u!! hee hee.. think ai pei and sharon might be the only ones who know what i am talking abt... hee heee... gg to zzzz now..
P.s.: actually i am now in a dreamy state cuz it's already almost 3am in the morning and i just finished marking some compos.. so if i seem a bit off, i am off... cuz i dun really understand what i am writing up there.. if u do, good for u!! hee hee.. think ai pei and sharon might be the only ones who know what i am talking abt... hee heee... gg to zzzz now..
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
Mindless Rambles..
Today i was on mc for the day.. Simply can't bring myself to go to work.. I think the tiredness is really taking a toll on my body.. I was never so weak.. Falling sick so often nowadays.. esp headaches.. I really hate it..
Tmr is the PSLE Oral and i will be going to Rosyth.. Let's hope that everything will go smoothly with no hiccups..
After that, sharon, denise and me will be going for lunch.. Hmm.. Maybe can meet shang to go and get gareth's birthday present after that.. Wow.. seems like tmr will be a very busy day for me..
Was talking to Zhang Yong 2 nites ago.. He is a real freak.. Imagine someone who's in singapore for almost 7-8 yrs and he still haven really been ard singapore.. During poly time, he's already slugging at home.. Now, when he's working, he's still rotting at home.. Forever at home.. Other than home and workplace, he knows nowhere... My goodness.. Been trying so hard to force him to come out from his shell, but he simply wont budge.. ARGH... I haven met him for abt 3 years!!! 3 years woh!!!! But at least he calls lah.. so still not so bad.. At least i know he's still alive and kicking.... haha.. I am very mean lah.. THat's wat i always tell him too.. So i am not talking behind his back.. I told him to call me frequently to let me know that he's still alive.. hee.. and he very ting hua.. ok.. think i will drag him out one of these days.. i really cant recall his face leh!!
Tmr is the PSLE Oral and i will be going to Rosyth.. Let's hope that everything will go smoothly with no hiccups..
After that, sharon, denise and me will be going for lunch.. Hmm.. Maybe can meet shang to go and get gareth's birthday present after that.. Wow.. seems like tmr will be a very busy day for me..
Was talking to Zhang Yong 2 nites ago.. He is a real freak.. Imagine someone who's in singapore for almost 7-8 yrs and he still haven really been ard singapore.. During poly time, he's already slugging at home.. Now, when he's working, he's still rotting at home.. Forever at home.. Other than home and workplace, he knows nowhere... My goodness.. Been trying so hard to force him to come out from his shell, but he simply wont budge.. ARGH... I haven met him for abt 3 years!!! 3 years woh!!!! But at least he calls lah.. so still not so bad.. At least i know he's still alive and kicking.... haha.. I am very mean lah.. THat's wat i always tell him too.. So i am not talking behind his back.. I told him to call me frequently to let me know that he's still alive.. hee.. and he very ting hua.. ok.. think i will drag him out one of these days.. i really cant recall his face leh!!
Saturday, August 06, 2005
P5 Camp
Phew.. P5 camp is over.. Overall, it was a good camp.. The kids had fun and so did I.. The first thing i knew when i stepped into camp christine was, hey! I met Kuan Ping there!! He called me and i was so shocked to see him there.. haha.. He was 1 of the instructors.. But he's not the instructor for my group.. So too bad.. But we did manage to catch up.. Hmm.. Really miss the days of Sports Camp! It was so much fun!! Every one was so "garang" and "siao on" there..
But I was still glad that my group manage to be quite cooperative in the end.. Luckily.. Cuz i really dun like to see students quarrel with each other like spoilt brats..
The games they played were quite good.. But i still think that a 2 days 1 nite camp is not enough for the children.. It should be at least 2 nites.. Then they will have more time to really bond and get to know each other.. And i can know them too.. Till now, i still cant remember their names..
Sleeping in the same lodge as Mrs Fernandez is a great benefit!! haha.. the kids fall asleep and kept their mouths shut 5 mins after lights out.. HAHA.. If it was me alone, i think they will not sleep that fast.. and maybe hor, i will be the one playing with them!! OOops.. hee hee.. but still, i am thankful that i manage to catch some sleep..
The next morning after breakfast, i kana sabo by 1 of the instructors to sing for the group.. Hee hee.. It was quite a good fun though i wasn't really prepared for it.. So i just sang a verse or two to entertain them.. hee hee.. i am a good sport, aren't i? haha.. It was a pity that none of the trs were my kakis.. They are there really just to see.. I was the only one who will shout cheers with my group and played games with them.. So in the end, i din really dare to show my real crazy self esp when Mrs Sim came for the campfire.. haha.. Hmm.. But luckily they were there too, cuz they are the ones who will always check that things are in place and stuff like that( i dun think i would want to do that.. hee hee)..
Hopefully, if i do have to go for another camp next yr, let the trs who go be the ones who are more siao on!! Then we can all go and enjoy ourselves there!!
Sunday, July 31, 2005
Pesta Sukan '05
Wow.. Pesta Sukan is here again and I am happy that this year i am able to go and see it again.. Thinking back on the days where i was the participants, i used to train so hard (6 times a week) just to be on the arena for only about 2 mins.. But then, it was fun! Seeing yr team mates fight and win, yr heart and soul will be beating for them.. For the winning moment, you will scream and shout! If they lose, then we will have to console them.. This is team spirit.. It had been a long time since i felt this way..
Today, there are only 5 participants from KSK, it's kinda of sad for me.. However, on the hand, though we only sent out 5, we got 2 golds and 2 other medals(dun know wat standing).. So it's still GOOD!! Especially when i see Jiajun fight, we know he will definitely win but to see him on the ground, wow.. He is fascinating.. The sweep he did on the participant was splendid, winning within a minute is a feat! I think it's almost certain that he represent Singapore for the SEA games.. Ken had won a bronze medal in the previous SEA games.. I sincerely hope that Jiajun will be able to get the GOLD!! Let's see if i will be able to go and support him in the SEA games.. If Terence could go too, i think it'll be even better!!
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Am i a good teacher??
I have this question since the day i stepped into the teaching world.. Don't be too fast to scold me, dear friends.. Most of the people ard me will say "hey come on, yr students loved you!" "you are capable" etc etc.. However, i myself know clearly how much i put in for them.. Even if i put in a lot, the results may not be there.. Whenever i am in class, i always have the feeling that i always deliver a very boring lesson, my kids are not learning at all.. Cuz all my lessons are very teacher-centered.. I talk more than they do.. They just sit there and listen.. I am a student once, i dun even listen to my teachers lor! I will switch off! So everytime i see other teachers teaching, the students always pay attention.. I know my students love me.. They prefer me to other teachers cuz i dun scold them that much.. But that's not wat a good teacher is.. I always admire those teachers whom the kids love and respect (and they pay attention) at the same time.. I really dun know.. Sometimes i just feel that i am not cut out to be a teacher.. I am not organized enough.. I always forget what i have to do, leave out something which i should teach, classroom management is horrible... My 5 faith gals dun listen to me at all in class. Do watever they want and dun give a damm to me.. I dun like to teach the wall and teach as if i am talking to myself.. That's wat i feel when i am in 5 faith.. but i dun feel like scolding them when it deprives the time for the rest of the class(which is not many cuz not many are listening).. I dun wanna become a teacher who in the end become bo chup as to what the class is doing and just keep talking as if everyone is listening.. 2 faith/hope is also getting from bad to worse.. forever talking.. I like this class a lot.. they are cute and their work is not that bad.. but now i have to be scolding them every day.. why?? why do i have to do that???
Thanks Ai Pei
Wow.. This entry is especially for dear ai pei.. THanks for yr encouragin email.. I always read my own blog over and over again.. Just to see what i have written and how things have changed for me.. Did realise that my entries are very negative(majority).. hee hee.. Though i try hard to be positive, but i have this habit of thinking and typing at the same time.. so i just type what i think.. Thought this will be a more accurate blog rather than mincing my words right?? eh.. see lah.. I am supposed to thank someone here and what the hell am i doing?? Haiz.. THat's ME!!! Hee.. THanks for understanding.. My close friends cant really understand what i am going thru now cuz they are not in the same system as me.. So they cant feel wat i am going thru.. But u, ai pei, u know cuz u have been thru it.. THanks!! I feel better now but as u know, this is a vicious cycle.. You go thru 1 thing and the next thing will come.. then once again, i will feel sucky over again.. But i will bite my teeth and go thru the challenges.. I know i can achieve if i set my mind on something.. IT's jus that i am a very lazy person and i dun have the determination to do it, that's all.. However, i am really happy and touched to see yr email, ai pei.. It nearly brought me to tears... really..
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And hor, hee hee.. i specially typed in a lot of new entries to let you read.. hahaha... Joking..
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Students now are so high tech siah!!
Wow.. Just looked at some of the 6 hope gals' blogs and i realised how dull mine look!!! haha.. OMG!! But heck lah.. I just wanna a simple one to log in all my feelings and stuff in case i burst!! hahaha..
My mood today.. hee hee..
Mood Analysis TestResults for Test Taken Tuesday, July 26, 2005
You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realization of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.
You are very talented, imaginative and sensitive but you are holding back as you do not really like going it 'on your own'. In preference you would like to team up with someone, someone with similar attributes as your own, to explore - to seek out and go perhaps 'where no other man has gone before'. It is the unusual that attracts you and which will give you a sense of excitement and adventure.
All the problems that you have been experiencing of late seem to have become a part of your life and there is little that can be done to change the situation. Your emotions run high - but even though you feel as if at times you are about to burst this situation will pass. Try to release your pent-up emotions by participating in some extra physical activities like running, swimming, whatever. There must be some favorite pastime, not necessarily strenuous, that can help you to relax.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.
You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realization of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.
You are very talented, imaginative and sensitive but you are holding back as you do not really like going it 'on your own'. In preference you would like to team up with someone, someone with similar attributes as your own, to explore - to seek out and go perhaps 'where no other man has gone before'. It is the unusual that attracts you and which will give you a sense of excitement and adventure.
All the problems that you have been experiencing of late seem to have become a part of your life and there is little that can be done to change the situation. Your emotions run high - but even though you feel as if at times you are about to burst this situation will pass. Try to release your pent-up emotions by participating in some extra physical activities like running, swimming, whatever. There must be some favorite pastime, not necessarily strenuous, that can help you to relax.
You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.
You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.
Monday, July 25, 2005
Waiting for the relief class
So sianz.. So irritating.. wanted to go SSDC to book my basic theory.. Cuz sharon can drive me there wat.. WHo knows, the EV people have to come down at this time and talk and talk and talk till now, already 5.30 and still dun let the teachers come down.. Ms tan is still up there and i've got to relief her class for 1 HR!! So sianz!!! Stupid.. Later got to relief from 5.30-6.00pm again.. ARGH... waste my time only.. I can go home and sleep one lor!!! SO SO SIANZ.. Now idling my time away by chatting with gail and kit ee (These 2 should be studying but always see them online chatting).. Hahaha.. I will tell Sharon abt this... HAHAHA.. I very evil... Muahahaha...
Sunday, July 24, 2005
Decided to learn driving!! Finally!
Argh.. stupid me.. type out so many things already and i deleted it all without any way to undo it!!! Shucks.. How unlucky!! ANyway, me jus saying that i've decided to take up driving and hopefully i will be able to get my license within a year.. This will be 1 of the targets that i set for myself.. SO that i will not lose myself in this fast paced society.. I hope to achieve something outside school and getting a driving license will be one of them.. Within a year, i think it is possible for me!! I think so.. Right?? Most of my friends think i'm capable of doing it... Hahaha.. Hopefully, cuz i don't think i will have the extra cash to retake anything.. hahaha..
Life is getting so meaningless for me that i think i must do something meaningful for myself.. haha.. not for others yet, cuz i have to feel that life is good before i can pass that message to others right?? Haha.. Actually no lah.. I know that giving is actually receiving.. I am just hoping that i can have a better control of my time and my emotions.. I am showing too much of my emotions these days.. Mostly negative ones.. So that's not very me.. I should be more prudent in showing my emotions.. Not in the school anyway.. Hahaha.. If in front of close friends, then not so bad.. so if anyone of them got my poisonous sting, then i am sorry.. hee hee.. Ehh.. I am writing something out of context here.. My title is actually driving hor?? Hmmm.. If this is a compo, think i will write out of point liaoz.. hahaha.. but.. wat the heck!!! I am the teacher, i am always right!!! Muahahahaha.... Hope if my students see this, they won't kill me!! OOps..
Life is getting so meaningless for me that i think i must do something meaningful for myself.. haha.. not for others yet, cuz i have to feel that life is good before i can pass that message to others right?? Haha.. Actually no lah.. I know that giving is actually receiving.. I am just hoping that i can have a better control of my time and my emotions.. I am showing too much of my emotions these days.. Mostly negative ones.. So that's not very me.. I should be more prudent in showing my emotions.. Not in the school anyway.. Hahaha.. If in front of close friends, then not so bad.. so if anyone of them got my poisonous sting, then i am sorry.. hee hee.. Ehh.. I am writing something out of context here.. My title is actually driving hor?? Hmmm.. If this is a compo, think i will write out of point liaoz.. hahaha.. but.. wat the heck!!! I am the teacher, i am always right!!! Muahahahaha.... Hope if my students see this, they won't kill me!! OOps..
Friday, July 22, 2005
Oh my dear sandals, how do i live without u??
Haiz.. My sandals are gone since the days i come back from redang.. Then redang trip killed my sandals and my swimsuit(err.. actually my sandals are already almost in the coffin, redang trip pushed it fully into the coffin)!! Now i am desperately in need of a swimsuit and sandals!!! But NO ONE!! I MEAN NO ONE is even FREE enough to go with me to purchase them!! How SAD!! I really wonder why NO ONE is FREE??? Irritating.. Chok Sin never reply if he's free, judy's not free, dun need to mention that 3 fellows who MUST COME out together!! FORGET IT!! I will GO ON MY OWN!!! Who need them anyway!!!
Friday, July 15, 2005
HAHA.. I am iN AGain
Oh my goodness!!! how blur can i get??? I can't remember my own userid & passwork for this blog.. Ha ha... test until i got fed up and cant be bothered to remember anymore!! Haha.. but hey, luckily here got a way to recover the userid!! Phew!! Lucky siah... If not, i will be too lazy to have another new blog already..
Sunday, May 29, 2005
Most troublesome overseas trip!!
Wah.. Finally got the bus tickets to Redang liaoz!!! My god!! I think shang will definitely agree with me that this trip is the most MA FAN trip of all!!
Imagine this, Shang went to Lavender bus terminal to get the coach tickets but the counter is closed for good due to watever reasons then bus driver said that the there is no more seats for the date we want! Shang and me had to go down to People's park complex to see if we can buy coach tickets, no agencies willing to sell the bus tickets without selling u the resort package.. So bo pian, i thot can go to Redang by buying train tickets to KL but only when i saw the resort email and website again then did I realize that KL is not the nearest station to merang jetty, then we gotta go and refund the train tickets! So Shang, Gareth & me went JB yesterday to get the transnational bus tickets and the stupid ticketing had to be offline at that time!!! So no tickets! My goodness!! I tell u, i am really going crazy already lor!! I even ask Shang if we can just cancel this whole damn trip! I told myself that if by today i still dun get the bus tickets, i am going to inform the rest that I am going to CANCEL liaoz!!! I dun have the time to go on a wild goose race just for the bus tickets!!
So shang and me had to go to Lavender Bus station today to try our luck! Guess what??! Tickets were on sale though not at the counter!!! And that bus driver who told shang there is no more tickets were there too and he even kindly tell us where the atm was when i told them i don't have enough cash... OH BLOODY HELL!!! IF HE WAS SO KIND ON THAT DAY SHANG WENT, WE WON'T HAVE TO GO THRU SO MUCH TROUBLE!!!!
But not too bad, at least we got what we wanted..
But i think for this trip, Mine fare is the most expensive one!! Bo hua.. Not worth it.. Next time i will not organize anymore trips for anybody... Except if i am going overseas on my own!! HAHAHA....
Imagine this, Shang went to Lavender bus terminal to get the coach tickets but the counter is closed for good due to watever reasons then bus driver said that the there is no more seats for the date we want! Shang and me had to go down to People's park complex to see if we can buy coach tickets, no agencies willing to sell the bus tickets without selling u the resort package.. So bo pian, i thot can go to Redang by buying train tickets to KL but only when i saw the resort email and website again then did I realize that KL is not the nearest station to merang jetty, then we gotta go and refund the train tickets! So Shang, Gareth & me went JB yesterday to get the transnational bus tickets and the stupid ticketing had to be offline at that time!!! So no tickets! My goodness!! I tell u, i am really going crazy already lor!! I even ask Shang if we can just cancel this whole damn trip! I told myself that if by today i still dun get the bus tickets, i am going to inform the rest that I am going to CANCEL liaoz!!! I dun have the time to go on a wild goose race just for the bus tickets!!
So shang and me had to go to Lavender Bus station today to try our luck! Guess what??! Tickets were on sale though not at the counter!!! And that bus driver who told shang there is no more tickets were there too and he even kindly tell us where the atm was when i told them i don't have enough cash... OH BLOODY HELL!!! IF HE WAS SO KIND ON THAT DAY SHANG WENT, WE WON'T HAVE TO GO THRU SO MUCH TROUBLE!!!!
But not too bad, at least we got what we wanted..
But i think for this trip, Mine fare is the most expensive one!! Bo hua.. Not worth it.. Next time i will not organize anymore trips for anybody... Except if i am going overseas on my own!! HAHAHA....
Monday, May 02, 2005
不可思议的经历
认识我的人都知道，虽然我不是那些常常到庙堂求神拜佛的人，但是我对自己的宗教是很执著的。尝试改变我宗教的人往往不会成功。我并不是想说其它宗教的坏话，这只是我们个人的信仰不同罢了，何必尝试改变别人呢？曾经有个朋友想请我到她的教会的活动，我拒绝了她。她却一直试着游说我，我很有礼地对她说了一句话“just as how yr god has touched yr heart, my god touched my heart in a way too”。我相信这样的说法让她了解到我的意思了吧，她从此再也没有邀请我到教堂了。
昨天我到了我哥哥帮忙的神坛（大爷伯）。因为我姐姐不在国内，所以我必须帮她到神坛求几道符（因为要搬家了）。轮到我的时候，本以为“他”只是要为我姐姐写几道符后就行了，谁知道，“他”却要看我的手相！其实我满担心的，我不知道大爷伯会看出什么东西吗？以下是我们的对话（福建话哦！我也不是听得很明白，是我哥哥在一旁解释给我听的）：
伯：你这个人坚强吗？
我：会。
伯：很多事情是不如意的，你只要把牙关咬紧，咬得紧紧地，事情就过去了。你做事时是不是很执著？
我：是
伯：我提点你一些事，你可以听也可以不听。
我在一旁忙点头。
伯：你这样的性格是很好，你的未来也很光明。只是，因为你太过执著了，只要你一遇到一些阻碍，你的心情就会受到影响，变得很灰暗。这样，对你就不好了。你要学着放开，呼出一口气，对你比较好。
（errr... 会不会太准了?我像个白痴一样地在旁一边笑一边点头。)
伯：你的性格是不是很强硬？脾气也不是很好？
我：对
伯：说好听一点，你的脾气不是很好。难听一点，是你有小姐脾气，你想要的东西，你一定要得到。脾气要收敛一点，对自己会比较好。你和你哥哥一样的性格啊。脾气都不是很好。
他也给了我一道平安符并且再次叮嘱我要修身。
说真的，听到他的这一番话，我就在想，单单看了我的手掌，他就分析了我的性格。不可思议吧？
从昨天我就一直在想着他的话，我是否真的这么执著，这么转牛角尖吗了？看来，我得好好反省了哦！
昨天我到了我哥哥帮忙的神坛（大爷伯）。因为我姐姐不在国内，所以我必须帮她到神坛求几道符（因为要搬家了）。轮到我的时候，本以为“他”只是要为我姐姐写几道符后就行了，谁知道，“他”却要看我的手相！其实我满担心的，我不知道大爷伯会看出什么东西吗？以下是我们的对话（福建话哦！我也不是听得很明白，是我哥哥在一旁解释给我听的）：
伯：你这个人坚强吗？
我：会。
伯：很多事情是不如意的，你只要把牙关咬紧，咬得紧紧地，事情就过去了。你做事时是不是很执著？
我：是
伯：我提点你一些事，你可以听也可以不听。
我在一旁忙点头。
伯：你这样的性格是很好，你的未来也很光明。只是，因为你太过执著了，只要你一遇到一些阻碍，你的心情就会受到影响，变得很灰暗。这样，对你就不好了。你要学着放开，呼出一口气，对你比较好。
（errr... 会不会太准了?我像个白痴一样地在旁一边笑一边点头。)
伯：你的性格是不是很强硬？脾气也不是很好？
我：对
伯：说好听一点，你的脾气不是很好。难听一点，是你有小姐脾气，你想要的东西，你一定要得到。脾气要收敛一点，对自己会比较好。你和你哥哥一样的性格啊。脾气都不是很好。
他也给了我一道平安符并且再次叮嘱我要修身。
说真的，听到他的这一番话，我就在想，单单看了我的手掌，他就分析了我的性格。不可思议吧？
从昨天我就一直在想着他的话，我是否真的这么执著，这么转牛角尖吗了？看来，我得好好反省了哦！
Sunday, April 17, 2005
Woh.. Super Accurate Mood Analysis for me!!!
I took a mood analysis test yesterday online.. I didn't expect it to be so accurate lor!! My goodness.. I pasted the whole results below and the Bold, Italic sentences are what i feel that is the most accurate for me right now!! Woh!! Interesting siah.. If anyone of u interested, go on to this website and look for mood analysis test..
http://www.selfnetwork.com/flash/color.asp?testnum=37
Mood Analysis Test
Results for Test Taken Saturday, April 16, 2005
Utmost in your mind is success. You are constantly seeking stimulation and a life full of experience. You are trying to 'grow' and above all you need to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt. You are an enthusiastic individual, full of life with the desire to live intensely. You like contact with others and are enthusiastic by nature. You are receptive to anything new, modern or intriguing. Your interests are many and you are likely to expand your fields of activities. You are optimistic about the future and you deserve every success because deep down you are a 'winner'. You are a very warm and emotional individual but unfortunately in the past too many people have taken advantage of this sensitive trait. You need aesthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm understanding.
The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren't quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.
It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but it's fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer. The fear that you may not be able to fulfill or realize all of your ambitions makes you work and play hard. The thought of being prevented from achieving the things you want leads you to play your part with frantic fervor.
http://www.selfnetwork.com/flash/color.asp?testnum=37
Mood Analysis Test
Results for Test Taken Saturday, April 16, 2005
Utmost in your mind is success. You are constantly seeking stimulation and a life full of experience. You are trying to 'grow' and above all you need to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt. You are an enthusiastic individual, full of life with the desire to live intensely. You like contact with others and are enthusiastic by nature. You are receptive to anything new, modern or intriguing. Your interests are many and you are likely to expand your fields of activities. You are optimistic about the future and you deserve every success because deep down you are a 'winner'. You are a very warm and emotional individual but unfortunately in the past too many people have taken advantage of this sensitive trait. You need aesthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm understanding.
The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren't quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.
It is said that we are all influenced by our environment and indeed you are no exception. It would seem at this time that even though you may be surrounded by people, you are experiencing an inner loneliness. Fortunately you are sufficiently strong minded to realise that life has a great deal to offer you and that you may miss your share of experiences if you fail to make the best use of every opportunity. You therefore pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity and are prepared to commit yourself deeply and readily. You believe that whatever you would like to do or think 'you can do' - you do! It is because of this attitude that you may be considered by others as arrogant and even conceited, but it's fair to say that whatever it is that you really want out of life you will put your heart and soul into it and will not take 'NO' for an answer. The fear that you may not be able to fulfill or realize all of your ambitions makes you work and play hard. The thought of being prevented from achieving the things you want leads you to play your part with frantic fervor.
First Time singing with very low volume
Went KTV with Ping and Jiahui yesterday at orchard.. And haha.. Guess what, yesterday was the first time that i sing KTV so softly.. the music was too soft and i cant really hear the tune and always sing out of tune.. Haiz.. But bo pian, Ping cant stand loud music.. haha.. so i jus have to sing based on my tune in the head!!(which is always wrong)
I better train myself more be4 i go KTV with Ping.. Must learn how to sing without a tune.. hahaha...
I better train myself more be4 i go KTV with Ping.. Must learn how to sing without a tune.. hahaha...
Saturday, April 16, 2005
Dinner at Sembawang Park
Went to Sembawang Park on friday with chok sin. Wah.. super ulu place lor.. Luckily Chok borrowed his dad's car, if not, hmmm.. I really wonder how we are going to get there lor.. Met Chok at Sembawang mrt at 7pm.. So i stayed in school till abt 6.30pm and took the MRT there.. Chok was a bit late, no prob.. But hey, he was wearing bermudas and he still dared to ask me why i wear so nicely?? DUh!! I just finish school lor.. Expect me to wear like him ah?? HAhaha..
But that place is really not bad.. The ambience is good and u can choose to sit either indoors or outdoors.. You can choose either western or eastern food there.. The food is ok too.. We shared 3 dishes with rice.. As expected, he couldn't eat much & as for me.. Hee hee.. Vietnam is where i eat a lot but in S'pore, OOpss.. I can't eat that much.. If i was with the 3 freaks, they will be able to finish the food for me!! HA haa..
We chatted for a while and after the dinner, we proceed to serangoon gardens for coffee.. Phew, he drived.. hahaha.. the benefits of a car..
We went hunting for a car park lot and boy, singaporeans really quite free hor?? No place to park car woh!! so many ppl so free lor.. hahaha... But as in serangoon gardens, jus have to find a spot and just park yr car.. what to do?? as long as we didn't park in front of the house or yellow line, no one will bother..
We had coffee at Coffee Bean... And continued our chatting till 1 plus in the morning.. Well, i must say that he is a nice person to chat with.. So i had a great night out.. didn't waste my sleeping time.. hahaha.. guess he won't kill me if i said this hor??
But that place is really not bad.. The ambience is good and u can choose to sit either indoors or outdoors.. You can choose either western or eastern food there.. The food is ok too.. We shared 3 dishes with rice.. As expected, he couldn't eat much & as for me.. Hee hee.. Vietnam is where i eat a lot but in S'pore, OOpss.. I can't eat that much.. If i was with the 3 freaks, they will be able to finish the food for me!! HA haa..
We chatted for a while and after the dinner, we proceed to serangoon gardens for coffee.. Phew, he drived.. hahaha.. the benefits of a car..
We went hunting for a car park lot and boy, singaporeans really quite free hor?? No place to park car woh!! so many ppl so free lor.. hahaha... But as in serangoon gardens, jus have to find a spot and just park yr car.. what to do?? as long as we didn't park in front of the house or yellow line, no one will bother..
We had coffee at Coffee Bean... And continued our chatting till 1 plus in the morning.. Well, i must say that he is a nice person to chat with.. So i had a great night out.. didn't waste my sleeping time.. hahaha.. guess he won't kill me if i said this hor??
Monday, April 11, 2005
Observation's here!!! Argh....
haiz.... observation is here again.. and once again, i have to put up a wayang show to my HOD.. that's what i hate.. why am i choosing a day to put up a super good show for my superior?? it's not as if i can do such time consuming things on other days too!! That deficts the purpose of teaching, isn't it?? haiz.. but what to do?? 人在江湖，身不由己。顺手推舟咯。haiz.. sianz right?? I am so so busy since sunday.. Since last year, kana scolded by my Principal cuz of my super bad teaching during my observation (though she wasn't sitting in!!) , i've been jittery since last year.. Think i will have sleepless night tomorrow... Argh!!!!
Sunday, April 03, 2005
PRIDE
昨天刚买了由木村拓哉所主演的Pride，一回到家里，我就迫不及待地开来观赏。果然不负我这么支持SMAP，嘻嘻，这的确是部好片。比起之前的Good Luck，这部也是有关爱与奋斗。日本人果然还是拥有这种气魄啊！只要有心、肯奋斗、肯勇往直前，成功与幸福就在不远处。日剧的魅力就在这里，日剧有鼓舞人心，让人有发奋图强的的功效。里头若有若无的爱情，队友之间的团结实在令人感动。木村所饰演的角色-春，的内心世界非常有趣。和我有类似的地方。
特别喜欢里头的一句台词：有时要放弃Pride, 你也必须要有Pride才能做得到啊！没看过这部戏的人，对不起啦！你们有可能完全不知道我再说什么吧！没关系，你无需了解。Maybe..
其实，我有时候常常在想，木村有时还真是个难理解的人啊！因为太爱SMAP了，所以他们所说的话会让我反复地想，他们真正想说的是什么？木村有时会说一些令人费解的话，或是一些很深奥难懂的话，令其他成员完全不知该如何接话才好。嘻嘻，说来奇怪，也许是因为我和木村有相同的星座吧（生日是11月13号，天蝎座），我发现我们的性格还真是有点相似的地方呢！我也是这样的人啊！在和朋友说话时，我有时会发出一些言论，但我常常不知该如何启齿或是完全词不达意，心里常常想，我该怎么说才能让他们明白我的话呢？但是，最近的我在想，我还是不要再在朋友面前说一些太过奇怪的言论吧。最近的我，太悲观了，有点愤世嫉俗了。
特别喜欢里头的一句台词：有时要放弃Pride, 你也必须要有Pride才能做得到啊！没看过这部戏的人，对不起啦！你们有可能完全不知道我再说什么吧！没关系，你无需了解。Maybe..
其实，我有时候常常在想，木村有时还真是个难理解的人啊！因为太爱SMAP了，所以他们所说的话会让我反复地想，他们真正想说的是什么？木村有时会说一些令人费解的话，或是一些很深奥难懂的话，令其他成员完全不知该如何接话才好。嘻嘻，说来奇怪，也许是因为我和木村有相同的星座吧（生日是11月13号，天蝎座），我发现我们的性格还真是有点相似的地方呢！我也是这样的人啊！在和朋友说话时，我有时会发出一些言论，但我常常不知该如何启齿或是完全词不达意，心里常常想，我该怎么说才能让他们明白我的话呢？但是，最近的我在想，我还是不要再在朋友面前说一些太过奇怪的言论吧。最近的我，太悲观了，有点愤世嫉俗了。
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