Am i a good teacher??

I have this question since the day i stepped into the teaching world.. Don't be too fast to scold me, dear friends.. Most of the people ard me will say "hey come on, yr students loved you!" "you are capable" etc etc.. However, i myself know clearly how much i put in for them.. Even if i put in a lot, the results may not be there.. Whenever i am in class, i always have the feeling that i always deliver a very boring lesson, my kids are not learning at all.. Cuz all my lessons are very teacher-centered.. I talk more than they do.. They just sit there and listen.. I am a student once, i dun even listen to my teachers lor! I will switch off! So everytime i see other teachers teaching, the students always pay attention.. I know my students love me.. They prefer me to other teachers cuz i dun scold them that much.. But that's not wat a good teacher is.. I always admire those teachers whom the kids love and respect (and they pay attention) at the same time.. I really dun know.. Sometimes i just feel that i am not cut out to be a teacher.. I am not organized enough.. I always forget what i have to do, leave out something which i should teach, classroom management is horrible... My 5 faith gals dun listen to me at all in class. Do watever they want and dun give a damm to me.. I dun like to teach the wall and teach as if i am talking to myself.. That's wat i feel when i am in 5 faith.. but i dun feel like scolding them when it deprives the time for the rest of the class(which is not many cuz not many are listening).. I dun wanna become a teacher who in the end become bo chup as to what the class is doing and just keep talking as if everyone is listening.. 2 faith/hope is also getting from bad to worse.. forever talking.. I like this class a lot.. they are cute and their work is not that bad.. but now i have to be scolding them every day.. why?? why do i have to do that???