At bishan Olio dome

Went out with Denise, Jolene, Sharon and Ai Pei yesterdae to celebrate Ai Pei's bdae.. Wow.. She cut her hair.. Looks good.. Look so fresh and awake!! Had a fun time talking and crapping ard.. However, the smoke really puts me off!! I jus bathe lorz!! So smelly.. But nevertheless, it was a great nite.. So funny..

Ai pei & Jolene both said that they love to be alone.. Actually, me too... But i am quite contradicitng.. Sometimes, i jus wish that i can be invisible and be alone.. And sometimes, i hope that frenz can give me the mental support.. When i am with ppl, i need to tink of their feelings and i need to hide my real feelings.. I cant be sad in front of them.. Even if it's close frenz.. Cuz i know if i am quiet and refuse to tok, they will know that something is wrong with me and they will probe... When they probe, well, it's good to have someone to share yr feelings, however, why must i make them share my problems and let them be unhappy?? I am like this, i dun like to influence my frenz to be unhappy like me.. I am not a optimistic person, i can give very optimistic comments to my frenz and ask them not to worry, however, i am not that kind of person.. I take a long time to heal my wounds and i worry a lot.. I am too sensitive.. I am not that open to my feelings.. I have a lot of negative feelings inside me that i will not show to my frenz.. They will be shocked.. So i rather give them a HAPPy JOYOUS fUNNY JASmine, a jasmine who takes things in her stride, a jasmine who is bubbly and always smiling.. However, that is only me on the outside.. I'm already very proficient in smiling so radiantly when i am feeling so horribly down inside.. Jus like now..
I asked bro, 你宁愿是个无情或多情之人呢？I told him i would rather be a heartless person, so that i wont be hurt or sad.. He said, 无情与多情都是情，这都是人的情感，快乐与悲伤都不会长久，那什么是快乐，什么是悲伤呢？And i agree with him, i wont be happy forever, jus like i wont be sad forever.. if that is the case, why must i cling on to these feelings???

The earth will spin no matter if u are ard or not.. no one is indispensable..

Reading this blog is confusing.. Cuz i write watever comes to my mind.. I dun have a clear line of thoughts.. so if u dun understand, it's ok..

P.S.: Seems like i keep saying this hor?? hmmm..